每一次看到那个熟悉的电话号码，都不想接
不止一次 ignore， 让它 silent 了！
我很想大声地对你说
不要再因为功课而打电话给我了
这样让我很困扰！！
我很讨厌！
我讨厌要一直想借口拒绝你的要求
为什么我辛辛苦苦做的功课要这样轻易的送到你的手中
你却不用努力，就可以pass ???
真的真的很不公平！！

big surprise

Surprised !! Didnt expect to receive card from home

How sweet is that my dearest friends!!

I am so touched!

Like the way 3 of u involved in writing the card ^^

HOPE TO SEE U ALL SOON!!

Still got 2 months to go !!

不可以再低着头了，又不会拾到钱
我要抬头，看看美丽的天空

不可以一直呆在家里，都快要发霉了
我要出去，看看美丽的世界

一直都是坐在家里，不是看电脑就是看电视机
好无聊的生活
只有我一个人可以忍受吧

好久没有在夜里看星星了
昨天为了要去载人
到外面去，才发现，这里的天空真的真的很美
还记得，以前上学搭巴士时，某个早上也是可以看到星星的
不过，到了这里才发现，家里的星星，其实少得可怜

我爱上了这里的天空，但是我不喜欢这里的人
我爱上了这里的景色，但是我不喜欢这里的交通

我不想待在原点，我想向前走
我不想停在某个地方，我想到处去流浪

一周年

好快喔
我来到澳洲已经一年了



一年的时间
我到底做了什么事
我有改变吗



我的英语还是没有进步
烂到死！！

成功的一天

昨天，让我很开心，也让我很不爽！
让我开心的事是，我成功的pass cookoff lo !!!
还是得到了蛮不错的分数，但是不知道真正的分数是几分！
管它呢！！
对自己的表现还蛮满意的
可是为什么出错的好像都是我负责的部分@.@''

让我很不爽的是，stupid toolio steal my whisk !!
讨厌！最后一天才来不见东西
真的是他妈的！！

忙着拍照，忙着说谢谢
过后，一大班人到小咖啡馆去喝酒
yeah! 好爽，有人请我喝酒，不用我出钱
还喝了人家的酒！！

有人说我变了好多，我真的变了吗
我自己也不知道
找个时间要和说我变了的人好好聊一聊

是谁？？

小器，任性，闹别扭，耍无赖！
幼稚，天真，扮无辜，装可爱！
好熟悉的性格
那个人是谁？？

明明是自己的定力不够
还一直不肯承认
一直要说是别人的错
好不成熟的一个人
好白目的一个人
那个人又是谁？？

得到，同时也失去了

现在才真正的发现，原来很多人到外国留学的时候
大多数的人都会去旅行

只有我不会吧，只有我才没有到处去吧
看见了很多人的照片，都到了好多的地方
我也好想要像他们这样
我几时才可以呢？

没有到国外的，在大学里也交了好多的新朋友
也在国内里到处走一走了

在别人眼里，我是幸运的
但是，我是贪心的，我想要得到更多。。
我不能！

我还是

我还是没有改变
我还是那个我
我还是会惹人生气的那个人
我还是不会说话
我还是沉默着比较好
我还是习惯孤孤单单一个人
我还是喜欢一个人静静的时候

就让人以为我是骄傲的吧
就让人以不爽的眼光来看我吧

没关系，我无所谓
没有所谓的不在乎
只是累得去管
累得去计较而已

不 ！！

我让你，并不代表我怕了你
我只是不想争
不想吵

我不说话，并不代表我不开心
我只是想要静静的想着无聊的事情

你不是我，不要乱乱说我生气或是什么咚咚的
这会让我很不爽！！

浪费时间

一大早就不想要起床！
为什么时间不可以是凌晨三点钟？！
幸好今天是第九个星期了
再过一个礼拜，我就要和 woo hoo 的 lao yi 说拜拜咯 ！
一个没有尽责任的老师，还好意思拿薪水
还好意思教训学生

在resource centre无聊的online
忽然看到好久不见的老朋友
鼓起勇气厚脸皮的说hi !
终于，还是有人会回复我的。
让我感觉到我还存在着^.^

跟一个陌生人聊了好多
他让我开心地笑着
他让我想了好多
他让我觉得其实我还是有别人没有的东西
（我自己是这么觉得的）
可能是他骗我也说不定
但是我不想要去说破
就让我存有一点点希望吧
就让我自欺欺人

坐在tram里面浪费时间
好不容易回到了la trobe
到人家的buffet去看一看
我已经迟到了，
有一个人还对我说不用管他

回到课室，不知道lao yi再说什么
还perli我。
无言
填了无聊的internal review form
简直是浪费时间

让

让 --- 一个多么简单的字
但是，现在的人都不了解它的意思了吧

在火车上，大多数我都不会去找位子坐
除非我累了。

昨天，同样的，以为最后的列车会有空位，
火车到时，一个位子也没有。
没关系，反正我也习惯了
但是，有一个老婆婆和我一样进入同一个列车。
有眼睛的人，都知道她是个老人
然而，没有一个人愿意站起来让位给她

现在是什么样的世界，礼让的精神都跑到哪里了？
他们怎么忍心让一个老人从 City 站到 Hughdales 整整9个站！
真的是。。。让我无言
两个死人中国佬，真的真得很没用。
这么爱讲话，不会去演讲！
他们的‘礼让’死到哪里去了！

难道到了不同的国家，该有的精神也不需要再有了吗？？？

watermelon carving

this is the margarine sculpture by Murray

Dragon Head !!

my very 1st watermelon carving ^.^

tweety bird !!!





This ''project'' cost me half day to do it !!
quite enjoy the process though,
my hardworking pay off!!
very happy about it
next time will improve !!
this time is quite rough
hope i can do it better next time !!

At 1st, Murray ask me to leave it in the school

but at last, he ask me to take it home to show my sister ^.^

Kenny come to the kitchen and i tell him that tweety is mine

he said i did a good job

he take bin liner for me and ask me to put in the fridge and can keep for few days !!

So happy about my Tweety !!!

说。。不出口

拿起电话，聊了无聊的几句
‘你还好吗？’''ok lo''
。。。。。。。。
还是很公式化的问候。
没有了，没有话再说了
我真的不知道该说些什么
你就说“你没有话要对我说吗？”
答案很伤人，我不想说出口
真的不会说话
但这不是我想要的
脑海里，就是空空的
不知道该说些什么
你知道的吧
所以，你也沉默了

huh ??

kathleen can u .........
Don't know what is he talking about
Turn my head & say HUH ???
gosh, everybody laugh at me !!
so NO FACE !!

He say don't know what again !!
wakaka !!
the distance is too far cant hear him
+ english is too CHAN !!
He also laugh at me and then say
U SHOULD SAY I BAG UR PARDON =.=''
T.T really sia sui !!
become clown

Always remind me that i should SMILE !!
at the beginning i got
but after washing all the rubbish from don't know which STUPID
cant smile anymore !!

Not yet expert in control my emotion
i need to learn to become ...
Don't know what is the word

lazy & rajin !!

miss chin !!!
what r u doing at here ??
go to do ur homework !!
ask u to do ur homework NOT play games !!
always wait till last minute !!
useless !!

无聊！

每段感情，不去想会有什么结果
无论如何
都要用心去经营的
不是吗？？

17/07/2009

Today is not my DAY at all !!!

My carrot cake colour is quite nice
quite satisfy about it
cool it inside the mould
i know i got grease the mould properly and i know it will come out in a nice shape
GUESS WHAT !!
maybe that time i am too lady so i don't dare to knock the mould
slightly press the cake and the side to make it fall from the mould
Srijana help me till so ...
don't know what to say !!
HURT when she do my cake like that =.=''
say i know what to do ... give me back my cake !!!

GERAM !! turn it over and ''pang pang pang''
god !! my cake pecah !!
break into dunno how many pieces
@#$%^&*() .. say s*** in front of butter ..
spoil my image @@

Don't know Murray jump out from where ...
look at my cake .. speechless as well ...
they ask me faster put it back into the mould
didnt work anymore !!
the cake is gone !!
but taste so nice haha !!
useless !!

Murray say is still early,
why don't u just make a new 1
he say want to help me grated the carrot
but somebody ask his to demo how to carve apple
so at last i do it all again
without anyone help ^^
Butter told me if need help need to ask ...
i know OK ?? i know what to do !!
I just want to try it again by myself !!

2nd time, finger cross my cake will be better
put in Murray oven !!
he say will take care for me !!
good then .. but took quite a long time as well as i add more pineapple ~.~
when the cake is rest enough ..
i don't dare to try it anymore
just give it to Muz and he hope me to get it out !!
Yeah !! Muz say finally i am happy !!

Another 1 is everybody yeast are already fermented but mine don't have any movement !
OMG !! so scare that i kill the yeast ..
really hope everything will work ..
YES YES YES !! turn out my brioche is the best in the class
i m really very happy !!
forget about the stupid cake !!

When want to decorate the sponge
burn my chocolate T.T
What the ..... , so bad bad bad bad !!!
Jeffrey suggest me to do it again
Bali help me while making the ganache !!
Thanks Bali !! really appreciate it
Thanks to u my ganache is perfect ^^

At last ........
Murray say it turn out to be my best day !!
Maybe .. luckily the end products is good
or else ... kill myself -.-

From Left: Carrot Cake, Genoese sponge, Brioche & Apple Strudel

bad bad test !!

i ruin my test today !!
i feel so bad
cant control myself not to think about it
sit at there and always think about the question and remember than i wrote irrelevant answer

i think this test will be my worst test ever !!
GOD !!!

My presentation was quite bad
always at there '' eh.. eh..eh ''
y my english still so bad ??
i m so disappointed about myself !!
shame shame

not dare to see my result next week

things that i do during holidays !!

Baking that i made during my 2 weeks holiday !!

Time past till so fast !!

melting moments --- yoyos

this time not as nice as last time i make =.=

sticky dates pudding ^^

yummy yummy !!

my modified cheese and bacon scones

is so nice

sand cake ???

just like butter cake but not so oily

短发？！长发？？！

三千烦恼丝！！
到底，是要留长，还是要剪短呢？

每个人都给我不同的意见
直觉上，有很多人都说，我还是短头发比较好看。
这是我想要听到的答案吗?

我可以因为一个人的一句话，
而弄得自己不快乐。
没办法，这就是我！
不能改变什么
实际上，也不想改变了吧
何必为了一个不相干的陌生人
而独自伤心
去改变‘独特’的自己呢？？！！

哈哈。。
现在的头发要长不长，要短不短的!
最讨厌现在的样子！
还有点后悔为什么当初要去剪短! =.=''

嗨！！算了吧
让时间把它拉长！！
除了这样，也没有其他方法了
后悔也没有用咯
我决定要再一次留长头发
等哪一天发神经时，再去剪短
wakaka

改变---难！

改变
真的这样难吗？？
我要改变自己！！
我不要再犯一样的错误了！！

明明就一直提醒自己不可以再犯错了
可是
我还是一样
老是犯同一样的错
这样的我还有用吗？？

真是无药可救
为什么以前的人这样聪明？
江山易改，本性难移
这句话在讽刺着我吧

几时，我才可以改变我自己？

我介意

现在的我已经不再介意别人对我的看法了吗？
我不知道！！
至少我已经不再那么执著了吧

那天，有人对我说，我不笑的时候看起来很凶
这样不好吗？
看起来凶才不会被人欺负吧？？！！

如果我真的不介意了
那为什么别人的一句话会让我想了这么久？
一直在心中问自己
我到底是个怎样的人
连自己都不了解
还凭什么去了解人呢？

i miss U&U

前几天才梦见你


昨天也和你聊天了


如果我没有写这篇“我想你”的话


你一定会说我的！！


是不是吖？

哪！不要再说我不好咯！

我现在正在穿着它!!

所以，你时时刻刻都在我心中！

For py & rabbit !!

coach others on job skill

very fast one week past already

finally today is demonstration

yesterday only decided want to demo about how to fold a napkin

miracle happen

today the train driver know what time need to wake up

the train arrive on time !!
dododo ... get in the train

gwen's mp4 out of battery so i share my mp3 with her

listening music and chatting

say many funny thing and suspect somebody is gay !!

omg !!

arrive at flinders street, while waiting for tram saw a pile of vomit

yark !! so disgusting !!

saw stupid yellow man at elizabeth street !! hate him

dont want to say Hi to him, but i think he know that I dont like him also..

sound like i m very bad!

reach docklands '' 5 star '' building =.=''

all the students wait outside the class

i wan so curious and go to the class to see what happen

oh !! nobody at there

waiting outside together with SuoJin and chatting

Alan come and say don't be so polite, come inside

start blah blah blah

Alan ask who want to go 1st, and after finish the demo we will have revision for the test next week

lalala.. nobody want to go out

Darmish say my name and everybody laugh again !!

stupid Darmish why always ask me go 1st !!

at last Darmish stand up and say I will do it 1st

wah .. so brave !!

but the 1st step is explain the reason for training and he couldn't explain ..

so --- Alan ask him to go back and think what he want to say 1st

OK next, who is gonna come out ??

..... soundless .. all people dont want to look at him again !!

Again, i feel that he is looking at me again and gonna call me !!

He say OK, Kathleen u go 1st !!

I know ! I know he is going to say my name =.=''
but i really curious why always is me ???

Find Srijana be my trainee

actually quite bad also, ask people accompany me dont know do what haha

follow my session training plan exactly.

see the plan to do the demo and ask the question

ask not enough question i think so the checking trainee understanding there sure loss mark

another part i didnt do well is didnt provide a good feedback

when Srijana train me, she provide a very good feedback and Alan praised her

after listen to her feedback, think back why i am so stupid didnt say that also ??

Well, i suppose the 1st person will have more mistake

and the following person will be improve

but except Srijana, other also like dont know what to do and even perform worst than me wakaka ^.^

good !! i am so happy !!

and the advantage of the 1st person is even u didnt perform well, the mark that the teacher give to u wont change anymore as he cant compare with others .. haha

SuoJin comfort me and say that i was good but i dont think so

Alan also say well done but i think i will get low marks T.T

other people turn, be the 1st person to do is really good

after you done, you got nothing to worry anymore and can enjoy !!

Gonna be brave as well to be the 1st person , am i brave enough now ??

Be Srijana partner to make crane

forget the important step @.@''

so embarrass !!

i didnt do well also

cant provide correct answer when she ask me question

Later i help Binod !

Alan say is you again !

Did i go out so many times ??

other people go out more times than me !!

Before lunch go to get result but got brainless people take all the paper away
then when people finding the paper, they will just grab the paper from your hand!!

how rude is that ?? Didnt study MORAL !!

I am so angry and scare that my paper will become ''salt vege'' =.=''

luckily still perfect !!

stupid me should go to get it early !! then nobody will spoil my paper !!

SuoJin dont want to do the demo, but Alan force her to do something

know that she dont have confidence, he locked the door so that others cant go into the room and let her to talk!

She is a drawing teacher before, so she draw a picture at the white board.

She try very hard and i feel that she did very well.
Wakaka!! something very funny happen !!

Stay back want to get feedback for my assignment but the photocopy machine is out of order so i leave.

Always say informal ''byebye''.

people dont understand ??

Anyway, see u next week!!

the thing i do today in coaching other and being coached

assignment again

another weekend !!
another assignment havent do !!
haihzz .. still the same ..
no change at all !!

tomorrow need to coach others in job skills already
but i still don't know i got what skill can couch other !!
just now finally find 1 thing can teach
HOW TO FOLD NAPKIN !!
ahha .. easy job ..
but i scare i will forget the step when i stand at there and other people look at me =.=''
somemore need to write session training plan
dunno how to write also
need to explain and provide feedback @.@''
really sweat la !!

faster come and help me !!

=.=''

too mao liao got nothing to write
but somebody ask me to cincai write anything
then i love this song tok put the lyric lo

really mao liao rite ??
i also think like that ..
wakaka !!

what kind of language is that ??
ROJAK !

the person who don't know chinese, cantonese and hokkien will not understand what i say !!!

爱情的模样

你是巨大的海洋　我是雨下在你身上
我失去了自己的形状
我看到远方　爱情的模样
曾经孤单的旁徨　
曾经相信曾经失望
你穿过了重重的迷惘
那爱的慌张　
终于要解放

你是谁　教我狂恋
教我勇敢地挑战全世界
在一样的身体里面　
一样有爱与被爱的感觉
我爱谁　已无所谓
没有谁能将爱情划界限
在一样的身体里面　
迷样的魔力却是更强烈

星星在夜空中闪亮　
星空下我不停流浪
只剩我无知的奔忙
因为你眼光　
都化成了荒凉
这世界全部的漂亮
不过你的可爱模样　
你让我举双手投降
跨出了城墙　长出了翅膀

你是谁　教我狂恋
教我勇敢地挑战全世界
在一样的身体里面　
一样有爱与被爱的感觉
我爱谁　已无所谓
没有谁能将爱情划界限
在一样的身体里面　
迷样的魔力却是更强烈

你是巨大的海洋　我是雨下在你身上
我失去了自己的形状
我看到远方　爱情的模样

還是一個人

好忙的情人节

真的真的很忙

别人是忙着去约会

我是忙着做功课 =.=''

而且還是做到半夜

一點都沒有情人節的氣氛

這算是好還是不好?

你..

你....?

我没有你想象的那么好

不要对我抱有太多的期望

怕只怕会讓你很失望

不過,我真的要感謝你

是你讓我擁有自信

是你讓我擁有滿足感

從以前到現在

我不曾是別人眼中的聰明人

是你讓我覺得自己或許還有那麼一點點用處

真的真的很謝謝你

希望我們有機會再見

我會很想念你的

我...!!!

人生 sea sea

有一天　我在想 我到底算是个什麼东西
還是我　会不会 根本就不算东西
天天都漫无目的 偏偏又想要证明真理
别人从屁股放屁 我却每天每天都說要革命
就算是整个世界 把我抛弃
而至少快乐伤心我自己决定　
所以我說　就让他去
我知道潮落之后一定有潮起
有什麼了不起

常常我　豁出去
拚了命 走过却没有痕迹
可是我　从不怕 挖出我火热的心
手上有一个硬币 反面就决定放弃　嗝屁
但是啊在我心底 却完完全全不想放弃
就算是整个世界 把我抛弃
而至少快乐伤心我自己决定　
所以我说　就让他去
我知道潮落之后一定有潮起
有什麼了不起

常常我闭上眼睛 听到了海的呼吸是你
温柔的蓝色潮汐 告诉我沒有關系
就算真的 整个世界　把我抛弃
而至少快乐伤心我自己决定　
所以我说　就讓他去
我知道潮落之后一定有潮起
我不能忘记
无论是　我的明天　要去哪里
而至少快乐伤心我自己决定　
所以我說　就讓他去
我知道潮落之后一定有潮起
有什麼了不起
有什麼了不起
啦啦啦　啦啦啦
明天我在哪里～～～

不过是一天

初三了

我的年初一就这样过去了
好没有气氛
真的很不习惯！

以前在家的日子也是这样过
无聊的过而已！
并没有什麽特别！
但是现在身处异乡
好怀念家里的一切！！
虽然在家里也是这麽无聊！！
但是家里的气氛怎么也比不过这里吧！
始终，这里不是华人的地方
就算有华人的地方，也没有家里的味道！
习惯了！怎么也改不了吧

家里好热闹
大家都在开开心心的过年
我到底在做什麽？？

委屈

本来有好多的东西要写
但是我累了！

昨天我哭了，哭得很惨！
而且还是在大家的面前哭得这么丑样！！

没有人了解，我也不想做什麽解释。
反正他们一定不会相信我的，那么，说这么多来做什么？

早上起来眼睛有点肿肿的！
好丑喔！

我不要这么容易哭！！！
可以吗？？？

nothing special

3rd day to school, because is Sunday, got very few trams and trains.
The earliest train is 7.33am.
Gosh!
Luckily my class start at 8.30am, or I will be late!
Fen is not lucky because her class start at 8am so she will late and need to see the black face of her teacher. Haha

Stupid train come late, always 1 !!!
Reach city at 8.07am. Start walking.
Rush myself because I scare I will be late to school and I had never been to the new building before.
Walk walk walk. So early only but the sun is so HOT!
Luckily still got some wind.

Walk for 20 minute finally I reached.
Fortunately I didn't lost haha!
Stupid school still haven't open the door yet.
Waste my energy! I shouldn't walk there, should wait for tram! So silly!!

After all the teacher discuss they decided to tell us to go for breakfast at the waterfront city.
A minute later they ask us all come back and say " we already found the guard"!
Then the teacher who ask us to leave say something I feel very funny.
"Now I look like a fool!" wakaka!! everybody laugh!

OK.. Start class then the teacher ask us to introduce ourselves as usual.
He asks us to answer what is the biggest sacrifice and dream job.
My turn to introduce and answer about my dream job.
Haha ... My dream job is become a CEO and I laugh.
Then Alan ask me what is so funny about become a CEO, I say nothing but still laughing.

Learning communication on telephone. Next week got test and he ask us who want to practice with him. Got few people volunteer want to rehearsal with him and after that he say one more before recess.
Nobody wants to go and all avoid eye contact with him. I feel he always look at me but I don't want to look at him.
He say : OK, if nobody want to come out, I will call myself!
I am so lucky because he said my name!
He must have remember my name after I say about my dream job. Haha
Argh. I talk to myself and my friends beside me.
Why me? Why always is me??
When i walk in front got one boy also came up but Alan say my name so the boy sit down again!
That day is full of laughing because of all the topic we discuss.

After reach home realise my sister haven't come back yet. Anyway, wouldn't be surprise because she is busy with her networking! Wakaka!

I also forgot what I have for my dinner. No movie watch also.
That's all how one day gone!

终于

Finally !!!
Yes !! 终于读完我的小说了 （Harry Potter & The Philosopher's Stone）
Yeah !!! 给自己一个鼓励的掌声

haihzz ..
感叹我的英文程度连小孩都不如，很多的字都必须查电脑词典。
一样的字查了很多遍还是会忘记！一个字可以形容------差！！！
更令人生气的是电脑词典又不争气！连个enter 也不能按！

阅读完这本书后，我才发现书中的情节和电影有蛮多不一样的地方！
在阅读的过程中，我可以借由电影来想象故事！
还蛮有成就感！！ hehe ^^

Now I am ready to read my second book!!
Don't know when can finish reading...
Anyway, I know I will enjoy myself.
Need to train myself to read more so that I can improve my vocab ...
and I found out that time passed very fast as I concentrate on one thing...
I can also relax my mind and stop think about rubbish things !!!


Hungry now but nothing to eat !!!
I want to eat char koay tiao !!! popiah !!! dao sha pneah !!!
Hope I can go back soon so that I can eat all the things !!!